i'm depressed... again...

yup!!! i'm depressed!!! again!!! ganito kasi yon... over the summer kasi, i realized that i really loved *toot*... now naman i don't know if i still love him or i don't anymore!!! ang labo lang talaga!!! i don't know anything!!! i'm so confused!!! before naman we were really happy... ngayon parang pa-hi-hi nalang!!! i swear talaga!!! if we talk, malalaman ko na talaga how i feel about him!!! i know i don't have to know, but i wanna!!! i'm just so annoyed!!! wala pa kong malapitan para magbuhos ng emotions!!! yung tipong taong hindi magccomment sa mga sinasabi mo!!! yung iiyakan mo nalang tapos iccomfort ka!!! gusto ko lang magbuhos ng feelings talaga!!! feeling ko kasi super sasabog na ko eh!!! ay nako!!! i watched kasi moulin rouge kaya bigla kong naalala si *toot* and bigla rin akong na-depressed!!! meron pa kong super stupidity na narinig sa movieng yan!!! "the greatest thing you'll ever learn in life is to love and to be loved!!!" that's so b***s***!!! ay nako!!! it's probabaly a great thing, but it's not the greatest!!! ay nako!!! walang kwenta!!! i love the movie, though!!! anyway, back don sa depression thing, if i talk to him kasi, i don't think he'll listen coz he's a stupid ass!!! wala naman siyang kwenta eh!!! ewan!!! i still don't know anything!!! ayoko nang ma-depressed!!! maraming nadadamay!!! ay nako!!! i'm just so fucked up right now!!! I HAVE AN IDEA!!! to cover nalang all of my depressions, i'm gonna act happy nalang all the time!!! para masaya!!! i know that's not healthy... that's the point!!! para madaling mamatay at mahhaunt ko na rin and mga friends ko!!! warning lang, pag sa gabing patay na ko, pag may pumitik sa tenga niyo, ako yun!!! gusto ko lang mag-hi!!! "how's life?!!! not that i care!!! i'm dead!!! hehehehehehe!!! galing ko talaga maging happy!!! anyway, bye na!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!! love ya'll!!! :D