guess what? i couldn't... i didn't...
racquel would always say, "he cares about you kaya!!!"and ivanna would always agree with her...i seriously don't know what to reply to them whenever we have this conversation...i mean i know he does, but then i don't know how it really feels to be cared by him..."ok," is the only reply i can say...i realized that i seriously miss him now...even if we see each other in school, it's just not enough...i wanna talk to him, but i have nothing to say...ivanna was right!i can't say anything to him 'coz he's the only person i think of...it's not like i can talk about him with him...i read this story that made me think:min-min (girl) likes din-din (guy)...for so many years, they've been friends...but now, they're nothing...in those years, their friendship or love were fading...way before, they would look at each other and not say a word and just smile...din-din liked min-min...then something happened...after that, they would just hug for no reason...then something happened...after that, they were a little awkward already...now, they're absolutely nothing...they would see each other and they would always pretend that there's nothing wrong...but there is...they can't talk because there's nothing to say...they can't hug because there's no time and there's no reason to...they can't do anything...what happened to them?i talked to racquel about this story...i talked to ivanna, too...i was even crying...i just missed him, and i could relate to the story...i wish i just didn't do those things that i did...i wish i could turn back time, and just hugged him forever...i wish i could just talk to him, and not say a word...i wish i could do all these things,but guess what?i couldn't... i didn't...
i still don't wanna give up...
whenever i see you,you look for her...whenever i say hi to you,you turn your head the other way...whenever i try to talk to you,you talk about her...what's wrong with you?sometimes, i just wanna quit loving you!!!but i can't coz i'm stupid!!!i let my heart rule everything!!!i don't use my brain at all!!!maybe there's something wrong with me?i will never know!!!i just wanna know why you like her so much!!!maybe we're just not compatible...i liked you, and you liked me,but then now, i'm the only one who's liking...i don't know what happened to us...it was like a bomb just exploded between both of us,and affected us a lot!!!before, we were really happy,but now, we're all confused!!!i'm confused!!!i just wanna frickin' know what you're thinking!!!every night i miss you,and at the end, i realize that you're not missing me back...you miss her...i guess i just have to accept it and give up...but i can't...you might think i'm pathetic...i am!!!i'm a stupid ass falling for another stupid ass!!!i'm already showing him how i really feel,but he still doesn't notice it!!!how stupid can that get!!!i wanna get over this stupid feeling,but i still don't wanna give up...
computer class...
hello!!! i'm done doing the activity eh... there's nothing to do... my head frickin' hurts!!! as in!!! ang init kasi eh!!! ang hina nung aircon!!! urgh!!! may sipon pa ko!!! kaya medyo nakakaantok!!! urgh!!! init!!! anyway, wala lang talaga kong magawa!!! hehehehehehehe!!! anyway, kaninang umaga dumating ako ng super aga!!! hehehehehehe!!! sister ko kasi 7:30am pasukan!!! aga!!! nakakainis!!! i had to wake REALLY early!!! urghy urgh urgh!!! anyway, pagkatapos non syempre school na tapos nung kani-kanina lang recess, super gutom na ko!!! i don't know why!!! kumain naman ako ng breakfast eh!!! baka may bulate akosa chan!!! hehehehehehe!!! and now!!! wala na talaga kong magawa!!! hehehehehehe!!! anyway, gotta go na!!! may isa pa yatang activity eh!!! this is like the most walang kwentang post ever!!! HERM TAYLO!!! wala lang!!! :D anyway, i love ya'll!!!
monologue on monday!!! urghy urgh urgh!!! *nervousness*
nakakainis!!! mine is short coz i found this summarized version of it in this book... i'm doing the soliquy of hamlet... yup, i'm supposed to act like a guy!!! urgh!!! my monologue is like exactly 1 minute!!! it's so short!!! ganito oh:to be or not to be? that is the question
in the face of suffering, heartaches, and broken dreams, i can't help but ask myself,
shall i go on with my life or shall i not?
if i continue to be, i have to face all the challenges, and in the process, pain is unavoidable...
if i decide to end my life, all the pain will be gone and everything, too...
after death, there is a great unknown that none of us has yet to come back and tell us what it's like...
"to be" is to face the pain of living... "not to be" is to dare to face the unknown...
"to or not to be? that is the question" which everyone of us must answer...yup!!! it's that short!!! please don't copy it naman!!! coz baka ako pa pagbintangan!!! hehehehehehe!!! anyway, may piano na ko!!! as in yung keyboard lang ( i don't know the proper name for it eh!!!)... i don't know how to play it naman!!! ay nako!!! anyway, at least i can like practice my music lessons... as in yung mga minor, major, and all those stuff!!! anyway, wala naman nangyari ngayon!!! we just threw a surprise party for my mom's friend!!! hehehehehe!!! after that, i slept coz medyo na-tipsy ako don sa party tapos i dreamt about *toot*... wala lang!!! oo nga pala, ayoko na nga palang pag-usapan siya!!! hehehehehehehe!!! basta!!! yun na yun!!! para lang nami-miss ko siya kahit na nakikita ko siya lagi!!! anyway, yun na yun!!! bye!!! love ya'll!!! goodluck don sa mga mag-momonologue sa monday!!! sana mapili na ko sa monday para tapos na!!! ms. castaños!!! pick me na!!! wag lang first kasi yeah!!! anyway, bye na!!! love ya'll!!!
uy!!! long time no write!!!
sorry peepz!!! sira kasi yung internet ko eh!!! ym lang yung gumagana!!! hehehehehe!!! labo ba?!!! anyway, i survived the first week of school!!! yehey!!! i'm currently surviving the second!!! ok naman!!! yung mga classmates ko naman saya eh!!! kulit pero talino!!! hehehehehe!!! basta saya!!! hehehehehehe!!! pangit nga lang yung schedule kasi super walang time for our barkada to like talk and crap!!! wala nang bonding time katulad nung summer!!! every week may gimik!!! hehehehehe!!! ok naman ang school!!! so far, love ko lahat ng subjects!!! ang saya ng economics!!! marami pala kong hindi alam tungkol sa ekonomiya ng pilipinas!!! like kailangan humihingi pala ng resibo, etc!!! hehehehehehehe!!! saya!!! i also like philosophy kaya lang parang nakakasabaw ng utak kasi super gulo!!! kailangan mo talagang mag-dig deep para maintindihan yung thing... hehehehehehe!!! anyway, masaya ako ngayon kasi super tapos ko na yung homework!!! hehehehehehe!!! saya kaya!!! hehehehehehe!!! kasi this past week super hectic ng sched kasi daming research works!!! hehehehehe!!! anyway, may nag-audition daw na lalake sa chorale galing sa freshmen na tinanggap ni miss!!! hehehehehe!!! yehey!!! may guy na!!! tenor pa daw siya!!! guys!!! mag-audition na!!! hehehehehehe!!! we need more guys para solid yung tono!!! heheheheh!!! audition na kasi eh!!! more girls din para masaya!!! hehehehehehe!!! kaya lang pag-nag-join kayo dapat committed ah!!! hindi yung ayaw niyo lang mag-regular music class!!! dapat devoted kayo!!! (seryoso ang chorale noh?!!!) hehehehehehe!!! basta kailangan mabait kayo para maka-join and duh... dapat you guys know how to sing!!! hehehehehehehe!!! basta, yun na yun!!! :D anyway, ano pa bang kwento?!!! hehehehehe!!! oh yeah!!! si *toot* hindi ko na masyadong kinukwento dito ah!!! hehehehehe!!! wala lang!!! i sound so pathetic na kasi eh!!! ayoko nang pag-usapan yun!!! mas ok pa nga sa kanya yung isa eh!!! yung other one!!! mas kinakausap pa ko and stuff!!! hehehehehe!!! bait pa rin siya!!! ANYWAY, i just got informed na elections nga pala bukas!!! urgh!!! i'm nominated as vice president!!! do not vote for me!!! bahala kayo wala kong gagawin!!! pinilit lang naman ako don eh!!! ayoko talaga!!! i don't know how to like manage people!!! bahala talaga sila!!! wala talaga kong gagawin!!! please!!! wag niyo na ko i-vote!!! yung iba nalang!!! biglang nag-iba yung mood ko ah!!! nakakainis kasi eh!!! ayoko talaga!!! anyway, bahala na sila!!! anyway, i wanna be emotional naman... sometimes kasi i feel like a loner (which is not exactly bad) kasi super wala talaga kong kausap sa class na talagang madibdibang usapan... minsan pa i walk alone tapos yung iba dyan na itago nalang natin sa pangalang enz tumlos bigla nalang, "bakit ka loner?!!!" nakakainis!!! i know joke lang yon pero you know?!!! i've nothing against enz ah!!! hehehehehehe!!! bait yan!!! hehehehehe!!! nakakainis lang minsan!!! urgh!!! anyway, i'll just surf pa kasi minsan lang to nangyayari sa pc na to!!! i'm sick pa!!! i have colds!!! urgh!!! anyway, bye!!! love ya'll!!!
zzz... i'm so frickin' sleepy!!!
hehehehehe!!! wait!!! nakakinis!!! na-erase yung post ko!!! urgh!!! this is like the second time i'm typing this... astig yung first day... i so expected it to be really bad kasi nga sabog yung section!!! pero it was actually ok lang... super quiet nga namin kasi hindi pa namin kilala yung isa't isa... hehehehehe!!! astig din yung mga subjects kaya lang parang ang scary ng mga names... philosophy, economics, physics, geometry, etc!!! parang pang-college na eh!!! hehehehehe!!! basta super ok lang yung day na to... and, i finally saw *toot*!!! hehehehehe!!! anyway, medyo antok na ko so baka sabog tong post na to!!! hehehehehe!!! oh yeah, jen, sorry!!! super ingay lang talaga ko!!! i'll control na my voice for you!!! i love you eh!!! hehehehehehe!!! anyway, wala namang important na nangyari ngayon... after school, pumunta lang ako sa ruins to buy dvds... hehehehehe!!! i bought 2 lang kasi wala nang time eh... house of wax and amityville... i didn't watch kasi both eh... sabi nila maganda daw yung amityville eh... hehehehehe!!! anyway, i think i have to go na!!! medyo antok na talaga ko!!! magjjournal writing pa ko!!! BYE!!! i love ya'll!!!
goodbye sophomore... (tips for the incoming sophomores)
hello... i'm kinda sad coz yeah... junior na!!! hehehehehehehe!!! payo ko lang sa mga incoming sophomore ay be ready na sa mga sunud-sunod na deadlines ng projects and stuff... matututunan niyo nang humabol sa mga teachers instead of the other way around!!! goodluck nalang sa inyo!!! basta if you guys need anything, i'm here lang... if you guys need help in trig., i'm here lang prameese!!! fave subject ko yun eh!!! hehehehehehe!!! tips lang sa trig. eh mag-notes kayo... as in lahat ng formulas kelangan meron kayo!!! if you miss even one formula, you so fail the test!!! super complicated talaga ang trig., but if you listen to the teacher, you're gonna do fine!!! ms. paclarin taught us trig.... she was so galing in it talaga!!! as in lahat ng formulas alam niya... hehehehehehe!!! sipsip ba?!!! hehehehehe!!! chem. din astig!!! i loved it kaya lang super hirap... you have to memorize formulas kasi eh... as in yung mga H2O thingies... kung bakit may 2 yung H... kelangan i-balance ang mga equations... kailangan i-memorize yung anions and cations sa periodic table... kelangan i-memorize ang buong periodic table!!! hindi naman, mabait naman si sir lasap eh (kung teacher niyo siya)!!! astig talaga chem. kasi you solve for stuff!!! para rin siyang math... basta mag-notes lang kayo super papasa na kayo... anyway, super nervous ako for tomorrow... i have no idea why!!! first day ng class bukas eh!!! urgh!!! parang ayoko pa!!! parang bitin yung summer... super hang out kasi ng barkada eh!!! as in every week kelangan may lakad!!! hehehehehehe!!! hindi pwedeng wala... kahit walang pera punta town para lang maglakad ang mag-bond!!! minsan naman sa bahay ng one of us!!! hehehehehe!!! anyway, i miss school na rin naman eh!!! i wanna see people na!!! i kinda miss the barkada na rin... ang bilis ba?!!! we just hung out don sa house ni chris nung thursday eh!!! hehehehehe!!! anyway, yeah... i'm still kinda nervous... anyway, gotta go!!! chatting with people tungkol bukas!!! love ya'll!!!
